My platonic attraction :)

My life presently is defined by moments of waiting ..waiting for nearly everything from furniture, internet, telephone (internet being the premium). I hate waiting and all I have on my plate is WAIT ..in big and bold.

I haven’t been able to do nearly anything. Everything is frustratingly going in circles. The past one week I had been repeatedly calling up regarding my Internet and Telephone and the same I am repeatedly being conveyed to one from the other. Ahead of all, getting connected through the hotline number is a big feat. Only if it could help… they vex me to the core.

To give offense, today I faced the knowledge that I, personally have to first get the DSL socket fixed and then await their services. Now how does that ring? My nerves had been on a tight leash. And the service personnel set them loose. I was head over heals in appreciation of the guy the first time. I am sorry for today dude. Anyway it is all your fault… you could do things the same nice way you talk. Whatever the crusade made me feel a little better.

I have been so tangy with everything and towards everyone ..especially Amma and Annukkutti had to sit through most of it.

Well this wasn’t something I had intended to write. I wanted to register my growing interest towards a colleague at work. It is certainly one among the best things getting to know him. The vigor he has for his age outdoes any other of the kin I know. He is unusual and special. He is on vacation for one month and his absence makes me feel the difference ..his company claims attention. And given the flatness I am starting to feel with all the very people I meet lately is only increasing the contrast.

I am beginning to feel really strongly about our friendship ..yes that is all is to it unfortunately. Though I can’t deny the fact that once or more it did occur to me perhaps I could have been born 20 years earlier or he 20 years later. I wonder whom all I have for friends.

What flusters me more than my attraction is my parents reading the post tomorrow!

<something on personal front>
How would one decide to love some one? I mean how do we start loving others? All the people (not considering my family) I have known and have come to love are extremely good and agreeable for doing so. But given merely just that cause and asked to love ..I wouldn’t. I am far from loving them. So where/what are the choices?

Amidst, this also stands true that without them possibly life wouldn’t have been as happy and happening as it was and is. May be that is all the difference and I am blind with too much intuition of reasoning. In the end, I am glad that I never had to consider any such choice.
</something on personal front>

May ..the very limit

Here goes another month past. It was pretty quick but when I think of it ..it was relatively of great duration.

It was seemingly a long month with ..my moving into a new apartment ..the taxing task of buying furniture ..the continuing await for telephone and internet ..the brief calls to everyone that I might be almost forgotten ..the blissful 4 days in Leipzig ..the in-dispel-able holiday mood ..the dreams ..the thoughts ..the scores ..2 books [The Last Lecture from Randy Pausch DEMANDS a read] ..the unwelcomed gaining obsession towards one someone ..same the unwanted regret concerning the same one ..laptop desperately  requiring a format ..amounting unread online content ..the growing need for change ..tiring health ..in the end as good as with an empty wallet!

Touchwood! It is a good thing!

This one was a real long weekend for me.. I had been desperately wishing for one.

Having one, three days straight are enough to drive me back to work. The same everyone missed me!! They feel my absence!!

Don’t know what to make of it. Wow suddenly the world seems to revolve around me. Goose Bumps!!

On reading

As the title already says the post is about books. I have a raffle going with books.

I do feel my reading is in bursts. There are days when I don’t touch anything. And other times when I start feeling that it has been forever since I read. I want to grow a more regular way of reading. The past few weeks have kept me really occupied. Between house hunt, work, and helping Divya, I did manage to read something withal in snippets.

House hunt reminds me, I have finally relocated to my new apartment. There is little else to say except that I have enough tending to do to make it home like. So for the present, given the lack of time and energy to shop I put off honoring my plans and whims.

With no internet I can have some sustained reading time now. Last evening I was talking to my house-mate about her reading habits. I adore reading and more the people who read. She is just learning English and has a nice collection of all English classics.

I like discussing books. It is nice to talk to people about the books they read/have read. What have I been reading?

Captain Corelli’s Mandolin by Louis de Bernières. The story is set in Greece in the days of second world war. There are some frivolous elements to it but presents a good slow-moving literary work..

Jane Eyre by Charlotte Brontë. The book revolves around only two people though personally I would have preferred more characters. The beginning specially arrests attention and later the story moves smoothly.  A simple story in the 19th century grandeur English. Perhaps the ending could have been a bit different..

Wuthering Heights from Emily Brontë. I love the way it is called. The book is baffling in the beginning particularly the names of the characters. It is a story within a story well written rather well told..

What am I reading?

1984, The Iliad, Guesstimation, and The Selfish Gene.

I delight myself seeing the list

Unwonted light mood

I am being gay today.

- with summer it is such that all the bottled energy is set loose

- perhaps the compliment ‘You look lovely’ really brightened me up

- the simple mail from that simple someone was so unexpected

- or weekend well spent staying home, reading, sleeping, talking and making plans must have rendered me to such gaiety

So basking I am. As the post title  says ..it has become already such a rare indulgence.

I am not here chronicling any of the melancholies of life. To life it is simply as great as it always is even with the fact that nothing is in place at present. I am still on looking for a new apartment. This is the only errand on weekends now. Anyway the coming two weeks is an uncalled break to my house hunt.

I have to get back to work. Before that a moment to appreciate the earthy treasures around… yes happiness is something I demand from life. Ok enough of my philosophy!!

Wonder why MY origami is valuable?

Simple… labor leads to love. As explained it is the IKEA effect.

So true. Of course I price all the origami’s I make no less to any expert’s. That explains why have I been preserving everything I and my friend made. Though it is obvious alright.

It is overpowering to see people perceiving such extraordinary ideas. A friend pointed out these Harvard’s Breakthrough Ideas. Today did I read them. And to you, thanks it was a good read.

Off topic, what is it with me and coincidences? Too many c0-occurrences lately.  It rings so crazy. Yesterday I was toying with the idea of buying furniture. Very soon I have to move out of my present residence and am still indecisive about taking up a furnished or unfurnished apartment. It is really good that you buy the furniture in parts rather the whole assembled thing from IKEA. Mainly it is easier to transport.

But there is a whole different consumer-behavior-perception to it.

WOW! I wrote this post in 7 mins. Partly beacuse I have to run home and partly I am keeping someone waiting.

I dearly wish…

our time together be more than a single conversation!