Guilty pleasure

Would my absence make your heart grow a little fonder? Oh the sweetness of pretending just this once ..yes it would! Most hopefully!

Fall is here!

It is clearly getting colder. Munich already feels like sweaters and tights.

I believe Autumn is Europe’s most cherished season. Mine too. I am not a fan of the incoming winter but I love fall. Fall is absolutely gorgeous. It brings the radiant red and golden in everything and the air smells burning leaves.

Nature is amazing considering the way it manipulates my disposition. It is pudding and cakes now. And dampfnudel. Time for candles and Halloween. All the same with Halloween it is officially winter. Again the good part is, it is such a great time for reading (I am a winter-house-worm) and drinking gluhwein. Ok my disposition is a lot towards food.

All of you reading this, do let me know what are the things fall brings back to your mind.

Almost everyone is going to the mountains now. I am having such a tough luck with my plan of spending a weekend camping in a mountain cottage. In two weeks I am going home and when I come back perhaps it is going to be too late to make a trip. This time again I will push it to next year.

Anyway have a great autumn time everyone!

Why is that?

Why do happy memories wane and blur until one could hardly recall them, while the unpleasant ones seem to retain their blinding clarity and painful edge in comparison?

When in need of hurt they always answer on the first ring.

Now that is a question

So many things that I nearly blogged if not for my tardiness. Apart from work and the constant social activities I have had so little time to blog, which is also true to an ample extent.

But truly, I am ever hoping to be regular here ..and failing miserably. You see I am once again in my cribbing mood today. Whatever it is an easy start if nothing else…

Work is very good, if I overlook the endless meetings I have to attend daily. With all my colleagues on vacation, there isn’t much interesting to do anyway. At the least I am sparing my colleagues all the discussions when they return.

Life wise.. everyone grows up with the idea of what one wants to become in his/her life. To me it seems I have only started thinking. Seeing my friends, most of them are already settled and their futures spelled out. And I am still clueless about how am I going to go with life. I am compelled to rethink what I really want?

Honestly, considering just a fraction of the things on my mind… I sound so absurd-minded. Certainly, it would be nice to have a plan that doesn’t have me floundering around clueless. But not having one doesn’t bother me as well. I am reasonably, actually more than reasonably happy with everything and the way it is, whatever it is.

Conceding to discretion, I deliberately avoid writing so many things. I slowly drop out of the scene when it comes to discussing self. Now don’t judge me to be constrained. Well in effect I am. But I wish I could give others a piece of my mind and make them follow too. Every time I start explaining things it all comes out the wrong way. I can’t pronounce them wrong. So much is going on if I want to talk I am going to have to forgo trying to make them understand. I neither have the interest nor the spirit.

To favor I am travelling in no sloppy straight line. I don’t know what would everything be like 1 year from now ..2 yrs from now, no idea again. Though 50 yrs down the lane [living or not] I know I will be a very successful [in every defined sense of life] and content old lady.

I have the slightest idea how much sense I make. Among other things, I definitely don’t enjoy writing so-thick-posts with my clumsy attempts to explain. I thought I should today.

Barcelona ..spent and burnt

I couldn’t have picked a better place for a sunny holiday, my self-spurred popular vacation of the season.

We, I and Olga were in Barcelona last week. It was all in all nice 4 days of fun.. 4 days of scorching sun and beach. I just loved the trip.

I am so well out of tune with the undisturbed way of travelling, it is a wonder now if anything isn’t amiss. My flight was at 7:25 in the morning to Barcelona. At 6:15 when my father called I was still sleeping. Usually I am too stirred up to sleep tight the previous night before traveling. What followed was a miracle play. We managed everything, got a taxi and checked in 10 min before the departure. I thought about checking in online the previous evening but didn’t do it. Glad they did let us board!

When we landed in Barcelona the temperature was an easy 38 degrees. We didn’t go about doing much on the first day. We took a walk through the city center and La Rambla, gazing around all the beautifully set up road side shops. It was only a weekday and the city was animated with tourists. We checked into our hotel late in the afternoon and didn’t mind staying in the hotel after the long walk. The evening was more endurable despite the heat. We went to the beach and helped ourselves to some striking Catalan dishes and its sparkling wine.

The next day was more fun. We were at the beach early in the morning. The cool ocean was a welcome to the baking heat. We did some amazing snorkeling. True to what I was told it was mostly sand. There were so few rocks. We could only see small fishes. Whatever I didn’t want to miss the beautiful ocean.

Afternoons were best spent in the hotel snoozing. We were more than willing to explore Barcelona in the evening. Everything was so alive, the vibes kept us bustling until 3 in the morning. All the European architecture, churches, monuments seem so much in agreement to each other, I rather preferred walking to visiting each one of them.

It was more or less the same every day ..snorkeling in the morning and thumping the streets in the evening. I also met up with JJ and others briefly. Didn’t do anything particular.. just curled up chatting. We tried paella and tapas. With eyes bigger than our hunger for all the delicacies, we ended up ordering a helping or two extra only to have a nice fat bill and strove to finish. In any case it was absolutely divine eating only seafood the four days.

I should get away like this more often than I think I should from the work-worn-thin routine of mine.

In the end I couldn’t manage to see their bull sport La Corrida ..ok I had planed on doing too many things in 4 days.

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Saw Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince this week. Was planning to right from the day it opened in Cinema. I liked the movie, proving otherwise to the disappointments of the earlier movies. Thankfully the movie isn’t swallowed up in darkness as typical with the older ones. Apparently, HP also makes a movie in the theatre in a long time. The film is slow moving given there isn’t much action to this part. But all that budding adolescent attraction doesn’t go unnoticed. The characters have grown which kind of takes away the topping. The younger trio was lot more fun.

I am somehow taken in by this book, not because of the story but it is Dumbledore. I was almost tearful with the ending yesterday. Otherwise too I wasn’t in very high spirits yesterday which rightly did the undoing. It wouldn’t be surprising if I did say a funeral prayer…

Public Enemies is in the list next. Possibly I can manage it next week or the week after.

My platonic attraction :)

My life presently is defined by moments of waiting ..waiting for nearly everything from furniture, internet, telephone (internet being the premium). I hate waiting and all I have on my plate is WAIT ..in big and bold.

I haven’t been able to do nearly anything. Everything is frustratingly going in circles. The past one week I had been repeatedly calling up regarding my Internet and Telephone and the same I am repeatedly being conveyed to one from the other. Ahead of all, getting connected through the hotline number is a big feat. Only if it could help… they vex me to the core.

To give offense, today I faced the knowledge that I, personally have to first get the DSL socket fixed and then await their services. Now how does that ring? My nerves had been on a tight leash. And the service personnel set them loose. I was head over heals in appreciation of the guy the first time. I am sorry for today dude. Anyway it is all your fault… you could do things the same nice way you talk. Whatever the crusade made me feel a little better.

I have been so tangy with everything and towards everyone ..especially Amma and Annukkutti had to sit through most of it.

Well this wasn’t something I had intended to write. I wanted to register my growing interest towards a colleague at work. It is certainly one among the best things getting to know him. The vigor he has for his age outdoes any other of the kin I know. He is unusual and special. He is on vacation for one month and his absence makes me feel the difference ..his company claims attention. And given the flatness I am starting to feel with all the very people I meet lately is only increasing the contrast.

I am beginning to feel really strongly about our friendship ..yes that is all is to it unfortunately. Though I can’t deny the fact that once or more it did occur to me perhaps I could have been born 20 years earlier or he 20 years later. I wonder whom all I have for friends.

What flusters me more than my attraction is my parents reading the post tomorrow!

<something on personal front>
How would one decide to love some one? I mean how do we start loving others? All the people (not considering my family) I have known and have come to love are extremely good and agreeable for doing so. But given merely just that cause and asked to love ..I wouldn’t. I am far from loving them. So where/what are the choices?

Amidst, this also stands true that without them possibly life wouldn’t have been as happy and happening as it was and is. May be that is all the difference and I am blind with too much intuition of reasoning. In the end, I am glad that I never had to consider any such choice.
</something on personal front>

May ..the very limit

Here goes another month past. It was pretty quick but when I think of it ..it was relatively of great duration.

It was seemingly a long month with ..my moving into a new apartment ..the taxing task of buying furniture ..the continuing await for telephone and internet ..the brief calls to everyone that I might be almost forgotten ..the blissful 4 days in Leipzig ..the in-dispel-able holiday mood ..the dreams ..the thoughts ..the scores ..2 books [The Last Lecture from Randy Pausch DEMANDS a read] ..the unwelcomed gaining obsession towards one someone ..same the unwanted regret concerning the same one ..laptop desperately  requiring a format ..amounting unread online content ..the growing need for change ..tiring health ..in the end as good as with an empty wallet!