Lasting weekend creativity ;)

As promised, yesterday was a day devoted to Fish. Let me just sum up ..I am still recovering from the odors of our yesterday’s debacle.

The most hapless thing was inviting a friend, after hauling him with promises of an exciting meal (fish and carrots, doesn’t that sound exciting?). But he went completely regaled with a good evening if not good food.

Am I late with resolutions?

With today, it is exactly 17 days since I had nice home cooked meal. Making coffee is all what I do behind the stove. Considering the fact I enjoy cooking so much.. I shall honor myself to the pat I so deserve.

About time I gave back and made a change. So from now I am not only going to be cooking and eating regular but also cook something new and different every week. It is an earnest promise. And please do ask me on Mondays how did I fare with my bargain.

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Currently I have imparted my reading to some deliberate neglect. So that makes an allowance for not rating so highly in books section too.

Whatever ..I picked up The Selfish Gene yesterday for the second time. Just to reread a couple of things.

What is all so wrong being selfish? As a close parallel to genes, we are selfish too. Each one of us is selfish, which I guess is the good part. Perhaps that is the prime truth. I find it hard to believe in selflessness if something in those terms exists. But with selfishness people are rarely (hardly ever) considerate towards others, which I guess is the bad part. Is it?

little update

Counter to my reckon, yesterday turned out to be a very pleasing day with interesting company and 4 hours of chatty talk.

Everyone called. Surprising. Surprising not because they did that seldom (though I am speaking to two of them after 19 months) but I have grown out of expecting anything. Weird me. Perhaps some cosmic conspiracy which furtively read my wish to have everything back as it once was.

So here.. lots of hugs your way for making my day perfect. Umma. What else is love..

And a big thank you for whatever up there which brought it about.

For now have a pleasant weekend you all.

Why is that?

Why do happy memories wane and blur until one could hardly recall them, while the unpleasant ones seem to retain their blinding clarity and painful edge in comparison?

When in need of hurt they always answer on the first ring.

Touchwood! It is a good thing!

This one was a real long weekend for me.. I had been desperately wishing for one.

Having one, three days straight are enough to drive me back to work. The same everyone missed me!! They feel my absence!!

Don’t know what to make of it. Wow suddenly the world seems to revolve around me. Goose Bumps!!

The inside reflections

Talking to you today… you touched a raw nerve… the straw that broke the camel’s back.

Now I wonder if what I wanted was to talk. I know the thing I need to do is to go on. Yet I hesitate if only in my own mind… tired (sometimes thoughts are exhausting) to understand and believe it.

Thanks to a lazy day and an escaping mind!! You couldn’t otherwise possibly get away with posting anything useless.

Strange doors

Starting with the post, I feel suddenly I have lost everything I had in mind of what to write.

There is much to say and here I am nearly unable to write. So there isn’t anything worthwhile to read today. Again my self esteem hasn’t been to its higher up the past couple of days.

Things are a little sad today. Just so you know, I am opening all strange doors these days… it is a new disposition of mine. I am quite all the time. The urge to talk seems to have disapparated into hiding. Almost always thinking aimlessly (can thinking be aimless?).

I am simply overwhelmed by the numerous thoughts… it is not about thinking anymore but thinking about thinking… thoughts about thoughts. Thinking in a different way to say nicely.

Everything has me questioning about everything. It is like I want to pause and reflect on things I was taught to believe. Either I am too idle or I am loving to escape into the oblivion of absentmindedness. One or the other, my activities haven’t been any productive as well. I actually don’t know what leads what… me being in the so spirit of not doing anything or not being able to do anything driving me to the edges.

Absentmindedness does so striking things. Like today at lunch I dropped my tray. Honestly I don’t know how it happened. The other day a friend offered me some cheese and it tasted like fresh spinach. Again honestly I don’t know what was I thinking.

There is something I don’t know whether to write or not. I usually don’t ponder over proper behavior and similar netiquettes. Well at least I have never given a serious thought to it.

Perhaps I am yet to cultivate many qualities. I had been completely full of myself and as told ..rather stubborn and having no worthy consideration for relationships. In fact it is heart warming saying it aloud here and it even sounds good.

I have to start home now ..with no interest even for a keepsake. Good night you all.

It started snowing again heavily here.