Between here and you

Started with the third milestone at work meaning work over dose the next couple of months. Which isn’t bad at all.

Merry Christmas.

favorite mistake :)

May be it ain’t wise any longer to put us together to work ..I am starting to love it

Now don’t let the picture deceive you!!! That’s again part of a sincere work!!! To all my late evenings for the past two weeks ..the application is working.

PS: By the way how does one love salads? I desire greatly to do so…

no planned downtime…

Nothing great to update on life… almost everyone who reads my posts knows all the happenings my end.

My weekdays seem full with office and German class. I have started with a new project at work. With that also comes the task of reading all the documentation and manuals the initial weeks. [:(]

Anyway this is not what I want to write about. I have been caught up in doing so many new things that I happen to lose track of many other things. Well looks its time to re-dictate my downtime.

I always did pride myself for having time for everybody and for everything. Sadly that doesn’t seem to be the case anymore. I met one of my juniors this morning. We used to work in the same lab in the University. Now he is finished studying and working too. I was never in contact with him after University. We did see each other once or twice in parties but that was all to it.

I didn’t have much time to converse with him right then and asked for his mobile number. And to my surprise he HAD my number and I…  all through the conversation was desperately trying to RECOLLECT his name. I couldn’t have been in a more pitiable condition.

After a week’s work, a peaceful weekend at home is the only prospect I am willing to entertain. Somehow returning telephone calls, meeting up friends, joining parties present such an unpleasant foretaste.

Having said all that, I haven’t done anything useful either staying home the past 3 weekends. Had been speaking a lot with family and friends, then sleeping and watching movies. No reading as well and I have forgotten all about documentaries since my laptop went for repair. Started with a couple of them this week. Finished all my earlier pending documentaries. Few good ones to recommend.

• Big Bigger Biggest ..about the technological developments in building and construction.
• Jaguar Adventure with Nigel Marven ..the guy hosting this series makes wildlife look so usual.
• A Girl’s Guide to 21st Century Sex ..well the name explains it. But don’t know why is it a Girl’s Guide.
• Science Scams ..some not so well known frauds through history.
• And a couple of unreported/scandalous ones. Should I be mentioning them? [:)]

Apart from this, kudos to the recent bombings in Bangalore and Ahmedabad… religion, belief and morals entice me lately. Not sure if I will come up with a post!!

A song your way..

HE

He is my colleague and someone I have come to like as a very good friend!!!

And with the thoughtful things he does, I know he too likes me. Above everything, he is the one person who understands everything I say. With my ample German, it is still quite hard to clasp a fluent conversation. Anyway I do manage to deliver my message. But precisely when I am speaking to him, I am talking so utterly bad. I want to do a lot better [particularly with him] but anything I talk is a complete hodgepodge. Everyone is laughing listening the way I use words.

Many a times, I was of the impression people in Germany are very distant and rather difficult to approach. They are careful never to get too close and always carry an air of formality. For some time now, the people I meet and especially at my work, everyone is so ordinary [probably not the right word]. They are so very receptive.

I know each one of them is very experienced and very well knowledged. There is much to learn from all of them. And very frequently he tells me, Ich bin ein Spielkind mit dir.

I have two other very good friends. I like them too ..and believe they like me too. They all are around 60. Who all do I have for friends?

Three very nice people in half a year… not bad! Not bad at all!!

And here a nice song.

..a brave world

I am in a mixed mood today [:)]

All morning I was so evasive!! I had been working in this company beginning this year and today was the first day ever I was so open-eyed and heedful in the meeting.

I am writing a simulation for analog circuits to be used in automated test environments. I have completed the first submodule and had the software verification by my project/software head today.

It was really important not to fish around (very normal of me) in the meeting. And with the fact that the whole meeting was to be in German, I was seating profusely. Anyway with software, you don’t have to do a lot of talking ..the program does it all. That exactly was wrong… everything will blow up with a single error.

Last whole week, I was working in cellar with the test system. I was screwing/unscrewing boards, connecting and re-connecting devices,  switching right bus channels, doing the electrical connections. I checked everything once again last evening just to make sure all was fine. Seeing anything odd today would have grounded me. I wonder how do some totally unimportant things give me the creeps and some completely grave things don’t.

It was an agony for a lot of reasons. With every person beginning to settle in for the meeting, I felt like being maneuvered deeper into an uncomfortable corner. I know many of them came for me, not to see what I have worked on ..a pint-sized relief.

It isn’t because I am feeling so strongly about my first job or first assignment. Everything had to do fine… it simply had to be right. I know it would.

My time here has been and is so interesting. There are frustrations too when I have to sit through meetings. And there are these so many people who like me ..they are as old as my father and grandfather and they ARE my friends. It is altogether a different relationship and so transparent… my next post is to them.

Have to hurry for my German class. I am so profoundly happy beyond reasons to attribute ..in my brave world!

@ loved ones.. Keep me in your hearts for neglecting everyone until today [:*]

Your pictures adorn my desktop :)

Every week I display a different picture on my desktop background. It started out merely because of my habit of doing so on my laptop… but now I do it because my colleagues at work want to be looking at my selection of pictures.

The pictures I choose are generally very colorful or completely colorless. I do spend a little quality time looking for pictures and setting up the background. The past two weeks, I picked up some pictures from a friend.

And as always I am asked the same question. Where do you get them from? You seem to have myriads of them.

Is it so big a deal to find good pictures? Well ..you just got to know the right places [ and the right people ].

Catch you all tomorrow. I am fried thin with no documentaries, movies, podcasts, TED and important of all no songs.

life changes.. drift happens..

class EndeavorChange:

def __init__( self , life_until_now ):

global anticipatory_bail = “I am exploring life ” \
“and beyond life. Changes happen. This is no deliberate ” \
“attempt to shut things out. I am just being myself. ” \
“If everything gives an odd feeling ..I am not sorry.“

take_a_break = open( ‘will_consider_later‘, ‘w‘ )
pickle.dump( life_until_now, take_a_break )

self.__always_happy = TRUE

self.d_myactivities = {}

def populateChanges( self ):

“”"
Will populate my activities with time.
These are what I am currently going to explore.
“”"
self.d_myactivities = { \
‘German‘: ‘UNKNOWN is a pretty vast ocean’, \
‘Books‘: ‘Going to read in all defined domains’, \
‘Documentaries‘: ‘I am addicted ..and beyond repair’, \
‘Travel‘: ‘Want to get lost to the sight of the world’, \
‘Sport‘: ‘Bowling and Football ..going to play at work ‘, \
‘Hangout‘: ‘Extensively with my colleagues’ \
‘..and as always SMART GUYS are most welcome ‘, \
‘Dance‘: ‘Wonder why didn’t I give it a thought earlier’ \
‘..it is so utterly cool’ }

self.no_compromise = ( ‘Work‘, ‘Blog‘, ‘Cinema‘, \
‘Shopping‘, ‘Ice Cream‘ )

return self.d_myactivities

if __name__ == “__life__“
exploring_life == EndeavorChange( __life__.until_now )
shall_be_activities = exploring_life.populateChanges()

print “I would be digging ” + \
“;”.join( [ "%s" % k for k in shall_be_activities.keys() ] )

*********************************************************************

Wondering what this is all about.. just my state of being lately. I am holding kind of some rapt attention to things I have never done or thought. Yes I am sailing in nonnative waters. And as a matter of fact I am enjoying it.

We all borrow heavily from the gaiety and blues in life. And life borrows changes.